Over the weekend

My friend took this picture of me over the weekend. I don’t recognize myself in any of it, well, except for the purse and phone. I really want to ask her to take it off the internet, but if I don’t have these reminders, then it’ll be easier to pretend I don’t have a problem. This is what the rest of the world sees when they look at me.

In two fridays I have a 12k to walk, immediately after work. I’m excited, but I must admit, I totally forgot about it until just this morning, and, I really haven’t done any “long” walks. I cap out at about 3 miles. I am really planning on getting one in this weekend. I might make it my only plan this weekend, in fact. The week after the 12k, there’s the Alaska Run for Women, which is 5 miles, but as I’ll be walking to and from the starting line, it’ll end up being closer to 8. My body is still under prepared for this. I need to shift my focus and start doing more, challenging myself more.

Instead of going to the gym this morning, I went on a walk around the neighborhood. It was nice to get out and enjoy the sunny weather.

I kind of got derailed, going to Ohio last week. I’m slowly getting things back on track, but damn it’s hard. I bought a pack of cigarettes upon my arrival home, despite that I had quit nearly two years ago. I’m not happy to admit this. I bought a second pack, and gave 75% of it to my friend (the same one who took the picture). I’m done with that now. For now.

One day at a time.

3 thoughts on “Over the weekend

  1. Isn't it funny how we don't FEEL as big as we look? I have done the same thing, I've looked in the mirror or at a picture and thought, "no way that is me!". Keep this and go to the park next year and take the same shot to compare! You can easily lose 1 lbs week (and that's a very moderate loss) and lose like 50 lbs. 1 1/2 lbs. per week average would totally be doable if you're focused!

  2. Debbi,Thats the kicker, isn't it, being focused? I'm really good for short periods of time, but every time my schedule is mixed up, its like my tower of cards gets knocked down and I gotta start all over. There has got to be a better way.

  3. Hi there!Yes, it is easier to pretend there's no problem when you can't see the evidence. I'm totally guilty of this! It wasn't until my SIL's posted photos on Facebook and tagging me in them last year that the evidence sunk in and I knew I had to do something.As for the diquis program-it didn't always tell me when a comment was made, made it difficult for me to view my blog on my phone (yes, cheap phone :O), and responding to comments occasionally didn't happen (because the system wouldn't recognize my account).

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