Today has been quite an interesting day, that’s for sure. I woke up super early this morning, and went on a 3 mile walk. I climbed the stairs of doom (which I tried posting to twitter several times, but my phone is a lame) 4 times, for a total of 400 stairs. Then I went home, and could not seem to… relax. Everything, my cats, the fact that I have a roommate, my TV, the windows, the dirty dishes… everything seemed to piss me off.
I decided my endorphin release simply wasn’t high enough, and what I was feeling was just adrenaline, so I turned on Zumba Flat Abs, and went to town for the following 20 minutes.
I felt much better afterward.
I got ready for work, locked my door, stepped out side, and right up the street were 5 cop cars surrounding a a house that had recently placed a sign in their yard that said:
If you steal something from this property, you will be shot with a shot pump. Call 911 for medical help.
So naturally, I was curious and a little frightened as to what was going on. I flagged down an officer who gave me the OK to go ahead and walk up the street. At the end of the block, my neighbor rode up and explained that HIS neighbor had been dabbling in some substances, and ended up stealing a car. Someone got tazed, chaos ensued, etc. But at least we’re all okay, right?
This winter I went on and on about how much I loved Zumba, and how it was nearly akin to Avocado (yeah, I went there) but my whole experience of Zumba has been up until now, completely in the privacy of my own home.
I don’t mind going to the gym- I’m there to sweat, and so are you. I don’t mind running along outside, because the generalized other is being lazy in their car.
But dancing? In front of people? I can barely stomach the thought.
A local bar in town has started offering Zumba on Friday nights, before the big rush. Apparently its a big what-to-do because you get to Zumba and drink at the same time. But I’ve never been to a group event like this. I regularly avoid going to bars because I don’t want to have to move in front of people. I am not sure I’m even explaining this correctly. There is a certain level of comfortableness one needs to have in their own body, not to just dance, but to dance in front of other people and I have never gotten to that level.
Luckily my friend Rachel will be joining me, and she’s attended several times before hand, so she has an idea of what I’m about to get myself into.
Its easy for me to feel confident at home, because its the same 4 routines over and over. This isn’t going to be the same at all. I don’t even know what this is going to be. I’m trying not to stress out about it, and hopefully it’ll be as super fun as I expect it’ll be once I get over my anxiety, but I am stressed, and full of anxiety! That’s all there is to it!
What was your first Zumba class, or fitness class like? How do you manage your anxiety in situations like these?